Along came a spider...

When was the last time I posted something? A long time ago.

Do I have anything interesting to say? Maybe.

What is it about? One of my biggest fears.

Huh? Let me explain.

I'm sure most of you know that I honestly love the guy in my life, right? After all, as everyone has remarked (time and time again), he is one of the few Nice Guys left on the face of the planet. I'm lucky I managed to snag one, eh? *grin*

Anyhoo, nice as he may be, he is still a guy. I'm not sure if I'm just paranoid, or being influenced by the movies or brain-washed by gender studies, I have a deep and recurring fear that I'll wake up one day to find him in the arms of another woman. Am I being silly? Maybe.

Recently, his friends have been teasing him about another girl. A so called 'yi lai' (mistress). You would think that he'd deny it with all the strength he could muster right? Not a chance. Instead, each time he just smiles and gives a half-hearted, 'No-la...'

What am I to think? Furthermore, this 'yi lai' has been bombarding him with sms-es, MSN messages, and phone calls which he happily receives.

What hurt me most was the fact that he laughed at one of her messages (which I did not find particularly funny). The kind of laugh I haven't heard in a while. The laugh that says, 'Aww' and 'She's so cute' all at one go.

Still think I'm being silly?

I've tried (and am trying) to be nicer, more attentive, more supportive...only to be brushed aside. Maybe he's busy with his exams? Who knows. I surely don't, seeing that he hasn't told me anything recently. How can one week make such a difference?

Everyone thinks we are the perfect couple. I still think so. I'm hoping it's just a phase...We've been through patches like this before, only there was always just the two of us. Now there's her. The spider I'd like to crush.

It just hurts so bad that I've got to let it out...