Is life so black and white?

Do girls have to act 'like girls' and boys 'like boys'? Who defined 'like girls' and 'like boys'?

Is it a must to give your other half something romantic on his/her birthday? Something handmade and 'from the heart'? Who defined 'from the heart'?

Is life so black and white?

Counting my losses.

I've never been so angry in my life.

Not even when my bro burnt me with a firecracker (on purpose, mind you!). Not even when my dad falsely accused me of breaking the door knob (didn't speak to him for a week!). Not even when a lame-ass driver tore off the front bumper of my car due to reckless driving (I screamed bloody hell that day!). Not even when my Maths teacher forced me to re-copy a whole section of an exercise book (I threw the book in his face!). Nope. I've never felt this angry before.

To think that just a couple of weeks ago, I had decided to forgive them. Forgive them for the inconvenience they put me through. For the lack of sensitivity on their part. For their ungratefulness. For their lack of 'people skills'. For being born into this world.

Well, it seems like that thought has been thrown into the abyss along with my Mr.Nice-Guy attitude. No more, no more Mr.Nice-Guy. Let's face it, some people just don't deserve the grace and mercy you bestow upon them. Some just need to be lifted by the collar, shaken, tossed around, held upside down by their toes, dunked into a filthy toilet bowl and smacked around hard by the back of a shovel! Yes, some just don't appreciate Mr.Nice Guy.

If that's the way they want it, so be it! As long as I don't get my money back, I am one unhappy woman! Although I've not been rejected in love, I can assure you, I am right up there with the scorned woman! Hell hath seen no fury like mine! If they want to be such calculative, conniving, ungrateful SOBs, then I'm definitely going to calculate everything to the very last cent! I wish they'd just stop mucking around like a bunch of pathetic low-lifes and pay up!

And when I get that feeling...

I hate that feeling! The one where I'm enjoying myself and yet in that same wonderful moment, I feel a great sense of guilt.

There I was, laughing, watching a stupidly hillarious anime and all of a sudden, boom! This annoying, nagging voice in my head goes, "Shouldn't you be studying? Your exam's tomorrow!"

True...but....

"No buts! If you don't study, you're never going to pass this exam!

But...but...there's only...*mental calculation*...3 chapters left!

"So finish it!"

5 more episodes?

"No!"

3 more?

"No!"

Hey! Cut me some slack here!

"No!"

Er..how about after this blog entry?

"Keep it short!"

Sigh. I hate you voice-in-my-head-cum-guilt-aka-the-kiasu-side-of-me!

Pfffffttt....

Ugh.

It's that time of the year again.

Assignments pile up, exams loom ahead, and due dates seem so near, yet far enough to make the whole process torturous.

Sigh.

10th May - ATD4010 Exam

11th May - ATD 4010 Assignment Draft 1

14th May - ATD 4120 Assignment Draft 1

17th May - ATD 4010 Interview Session 2

18th May - ATD 4120 Assignment Draft 2

19th May - ATD 4120 Presentation

20th May - ATD 4120 Assignment Final Draft

22nd May - ATD 4120 Assignment Due

27th May - ATD 4010 Assignment Draft 2

29th May - ATD 4010 Assignment Final Draft

31st May - ATD 4010 Assignment Due

9th June - ATD 4120 Exam

"When I can't,

that's when He does his best work!"