Along came a spider...

When was the last time I posted something? A long time ago.

Do I have anything interesting to say? Maybe.

What is it about? One of my biggest fears.

Huh? Let me explain.

I'm sure most of you know that I honestly love the guy in my life, right? After all, as everyone has remarked (time and time again), he is one of the few Nice Guys left on the face of the planet. I'm lucky I managed to snag one, eh? *grin*

Anyhoo, nice as he may be, he is still a guy. I'm not sure if I'm just paranoid, or being influenced by the movies or brain-washed by gender studies, I have a deep and recurring fear that I'll wake up one day to find him in the arms of another woman. Am I being silly? Maybe.

Recently, his friends have been teasing him about another girl. A so called 'yi lai' (mistress). You would think that he'd deny it with all the strength he could muster right? Not a chance. Instead, each time he just smiles and gives a half-hearted, 'No-la...'

What am I to think? Furthermore, this 'yi lai' has been bombarding him with sms-es, MSN messages, and phone calls which he happily receives.

What hurt me most was the fact that he laughed at one of her messages (which I did not find particularly funny). The kind of laugh I haven't heard in a while. The laugh that says, 'Aww' and 'She's so cute' all at one go.

Still think I'm being silly?

I've tried (and am trying) to be nicer, more attentive, more supportive...only to be brushed aside. Maybe he's busy with his exams? Who knows. I surely don't, seeing that he hasn't told me anything recently. How can one week make such a difference?

Everyone thinks we are the perfect couple. I still think so. I'm hoping it's just a phase...We've been through patches like this before, only there was always just the two of us. Now there's her. The spider I'd like to crush.

It just hurts so bad that I've got to let it out...

Casablanca...

I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca

You know I've never really been there so I don't know

I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen

But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go

The song has been playing repeatedly on Ed's comp. Not sure why its on, but he left without turning it off.

So here I am. Alone.

Why didn't I go out with Ed and the rest? Cause I'm feverish and struggling with assignments.

Why didn't he stay? Cause I told him to go.

Did I want him to stay? I don't know.

How do I feel? Teary. Disappointed. Dead.

Maybe the fever's playing with my emotions.

Sigh.

It's been a while...

Wow! Haven't blogged in some time.

Let's see, I'll try to think back as far as possible and summarize each event into a couple of lines. Here goes!

1. Bought a new racquet - 3 weeks ago.

Impulsively purchased the latest racquet from Yonex. Nanospeed 7000. Realised much, much later that it was way above my budget. Decided that parents should pay for it, seeing that it was my first ever sports equipment.

2. Caught a cold - 2 weeks ago.

Had a very bad cold. It came with the works - flu, headache, backache, fever, cough and sorethroat. Ed suggested that I sweat it out with a game badminton. Felt worse after that. Had 2 assignments and 2 presentations due that week. Managed to submit everything on time. Croaked my way through the presentation. All good.

3. Supported Ed - 1 and 1/2 weeks ago.

Supported Ed during his badminton competition. He played really well, but alas, only managed to be 2nd runner up. Am still very proud!

4. Went back to Adelaide - 1 week ago.

Rested in Adelaide for a week. Was really enjoyable. Spent time with Mum & Dad. Ate heaps, flew kites, did some gardening, and played ping pong. Left reluctantly.

5. Doing last minute work - currently.

The hols have finally come to an end. No more lounging around. No more bumming. Time to get serious! I've got loads of assignments due. Am no where near getting started. Will start borrowing books tomorrow. Tonight, I'll just concentrate on my debate summary. Sigh!

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In other news, sources have revealed that a certain someone has been spotted cozying up to another certain someone. Although both deny a relationship of any sort, mutual friends of both parties say otherwise. When questioned, one close friend reported that male someone and female someone spent the night together. Other witnesses have confirmed that an extra mattress was found in the room of the male someone.

Speculation has it that male someone and female someone have hooked up. As no official announcement has been made yet, bets are still accepted. Odds are as follows:

1 : 3 Already together

1 : 2 Will get together within the next couple of weeks

1 : 5 Will never end up together

1 : 6 Will get together in another 3 months or >

Odds will continually be updated to enable you to gauge the relationship's outcome as it progresses! Follow the action as it happens!

Note: When the above was blogged, I was in a happy mood, merely teasing the two of them. Seeing that one of them has pissed me off, no more updates will be provided. Am finding it very hard to fall asleep as I don't understand why that someone is blowing things out of proportion. Am thoroughly, thoroughly pissed off. None of us actually care if they get together or not. It won't add to our joy nor sorrow in any way. We're just having a few laughs. Nevertheless, we're curious - if nothing is going on, what's with all the secrecy?

Well, that's one question that remains to be answered.